در باب یک ایستک باز نشده

مثل همیشه از همون راه همیشگی‌ میری همون سوپر مارکت همیشگی‌ و همون ایستک شیشه‌ای همیشگی‌ رو میگیری و میری همون جای همیشگی‌ تا همون منظره ی همیشگی‌ رو نگاه کنی‌ و ایستک همیشگی‌ رو بخوری،

که میبینی‌ در باز کن نداری.

دائماً

یکسان نباشد

حال دوران

غم مخور

حافظ -

آخ اگه بارون بباره...

this is it.

it's as much about the day as it is the night.

And to have your last day in the car out in the city without a single worry in the world driving from east to west, to north, to south, to east again,

together,

and the day is the shortest day of the year.

and then there are nights that are longer. Literally.

25

I hadn't known that laughing could hurt so much when all you really wanted to do was cry.

وقتی دل لامصب برای هکر تنگ میشود

From:me
To:me
Date: 8/10/08

Subject: Hi

Body:

Can't remember sending this email? rite! Because ya didn't send it :D

--Hacker

Love.

River Flows In You (First Love) - Yiruma

God

- I don't like him enough to believe in him.

- But you believe in him enough not to like him?

The Dream

One day I'm gonna leave my piano and go to Juilliard.

I don't forgive.

I forget.

If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?

a moment blunt

I miss my friends

but I can't do friendship on a freakin' phone

I suck

It can't get any simpler than this

.

A tribute to my most playeds

Using the shuffle to choose from more than 5000 songs to listen to 

for a couple of weeks

diminishes the feeling you used to get

from listening

to 

music

worth a shot

- If you cover the window, the bird might not crash into it.

- It probably just crash into a different window.

still of the silence

If you could walk on water

If you could tell me what's next

Make me believe

Make me forget

روتین گریزی

دلم میخواد یه روزهایی از خواب که بیدار میشم هیچ دلیلی برای از تخت بیرون اومدن نداشته باشم. کوچکترین انگیزه ای و کوچکترین هدفی و کوچکترین وظیفه ای نداشته باشم.
اون موقعست که آدما در اوج ابتکارند.
پاشم و اولین کاری که به ذهنم رسید رو انجام بدم.

پ.ن. داشت. دیگه نداره

Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's ok though, because I've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. so when I meet someone who's an 8-color type.. I'm like, "hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "oh, you mean purple!" and she goes off on her purple thing, and I'm like, "no - I want magenta!"

- John Mayer

the abridged version

Passwords are fun.
There are the "123456" ones.
There are the "bruxelles98@$%mikhambiamtoo" ones.
There are the "silentlucidity" ones.

You can have them under "always remember" and eventually forget them.
You can have them under "always remember" and remember them with a little bit of thinking.
You can enter them manually, every time, every day and know the keyboard path under your fingers by heart.


P.S. I don't feel back yet.

توضیح واضحات

حوصله ی بلاگ نوشتن و بلاگ خوندن نیست تا اطلاع ثانوی

خواب نامه

دیشب خواب دیدم که تمام آدم هایی که رفتن هر کدوم یه گوشه ی دنیا برگشتن و همه تهرانن، ولی با ساعت محلی جایی که بودن کار می کنن. یعنی مثلا من داشتم شب از کار برمی گشتم خونه و زنگ زدم به سارا و آرین که شام بریم یه چیزی بخوریم، آرین گفت که تازه بیدار شده و باید صبونه بخوره و بره دانشگاه، سارام خواب بود. حالا تعبیر کنید پرتقال فروش را!!

Me, with 5 year head start.

I thank the day I met Louise everyday.

First storm

The only thing saying "Autumn is here" this year.

From zero to 96.56 in 2.6

- What's the point then?
- The point is, I'm learning. Having an experience like this, I can tell my kids "that's how you do it".
- and you don't leave because...?
- The answer is not always in leaving.

- It's okay, as long as you come back.
- I will, as long as you let me.

A Modern Myth - 30 Seconds to Mars

when it comes to this

Thanks for finding the time to say goodbyes to me.

New poll

and still not the same.

09:09:09 09.09.09

I was with you.

To Chose or to be Chosen

There are constants and there are variables. Variables are suppose to change, but they can stay the same for some time too. And that's when you forget they are variables and treat them as your constants, trust them to be your constants,
and then one day, they just change.

When your variables change they are not your variables anymore, they are just variables. And that's when you feel TIME. That's when you discover time. Everything divides into before and after. All you have is milestones of when a variable changed.

It wouldn't have been necessarily a bad thing if you had your constants. Constants are good, can be with you until the end, you can trust to build nations on them. It's just, the thing with constants is, they don't change, and if they don't work for you.... they don't work for you.

theme: Lost's "Life and Death"

P.S. No one's to blame.

new poll

and they are not the same.

Today I raced the sun and I lost it

I'll catch the "sunset at pol" tomorrow.

decide not to go on,

as the seasons change.

توجيه نامه

آخ که من چقدر خوشم مياد از اين جمله ی "همه چيزمون به همه چيزمون مياد". والا به خدا، مياد خب!!!!

پ.ن. اين بلاگ کمی تا قسمتی داره خاک ميگيره. جهنم اينم ميندازيم گردن توييتر

"sea"gulls

- How far you think a seagull is gotta get inland before it's just a gull?
- It's still a seagull. I don't think it just stops being a seagull because it's not near the water anymore.
- You don't think a place changes you? Think you might be wrong about that.

poll updated

I'm learning every day.

پنجشنبه

يک ماه و نيم پيش، چند روز قبل از انتخابات، تو ترافيک 5 ساعته ی حکيم، پوستر و پارچه ی سبز بود که بين ماشينا رد و بدل می شد. همه مي خنديدند.
ديروز، تو ترافيک 2 ساعته ی حکيم، تو يه سکوت نيم ساعته دستها از ماشينا بيرون بود. علامت وی.
عالی بود.
و بعد صدای بوق کر کننده ی ماشين ها. هيچکس نمي خنديد.
پليس کنار اتوبان پلاک ماشينا رو مي نوشت. مردم کنار اتوبان دست تکون مي دادن.

ديدم که حتی اگه الله اکبر نگن و تظاهرات نرن، کافيه يکی دستشو بياره بالا
تا کلی دست بياد بالا

self control

I've always had this problem with self-reward systems. It never works for me!
I can't say if X happens I'll get myself a nice Y! I'll go get Y, if X happened that would be my "I did it go me" reward, if X didn't happen, it would be my "who cares never mind cheer up" reward!

ذهن انسان تمايل عجيبی به باور خبر های خوب دارد.
همين.

I'm not bitter, I'm better.

It just makes me blue sometimes. That's all!

Sometimes I wish I could

choose the bolder, taken by fewer, newer, never happened before, more dangerous, crazier, sounds funner but riskier, YET better choice.


P.S. Guess it's good I have you to nudge me from time to time.

It's true

Twitter does make you lazy for blogging!

جمع بندی نامه

پیش نوشت: وقتی پل قبلی رو می نوشتم فکر نمی کردم اینقدر لیترال جوابشو ببینم.

0. پل جدید.
1. موسوی رئیس جمهور من است.
2. رئیس نداریم. دکتر بعد از یک دعوای اساسی با مدیرعامل تا اطلاع ثانوی رفته است.
3. می خواستم گاهی وال پیپرهای موبایلم رو پست کنم اینجا بس که عاشقشونم، رفتم یه بلاگ زدم، حالا پیدا کنید دلیل زدن این بلاگ رو!!

پی نوشت: فارسی نوشتن اینجا مثل فارسی کردن هزار تا کار دیگه باگ داره

شايد. فقط شايد

Unsuspecting Sunday Afternoon - Backstreet Boys

this one's for you MDO.

1. Normal people have milestones.
2. Normal people know where/when/who it is.
3. We don't do normal.
4. Not knowing and passing it is actually more fun.
5. Not knowing and passing it is more real.
6. Some people can write a lecture (and reason), just because the last day of their BSc life passed without them knowing it.


P.S. New poll.

Got Used To Bad News - Boston

Handy :D

Explanatory Slings!!

A bad bad bad day,

ends bad too of course! X(

http://www84.wolframalpha.com/

Try tehran, google, sin(x) or espanol!

plain and simple

You lie. You fall.
You lag. You lose.
You cheat. You pay.
You write. You grow.
You believe. You see.
You bitch. You receive.
You procrastinate. You stop.
You jump. You die. Or fly. Depends.

- We still watch the same moon every night.
- Yeah but we have different Googles.

وقتی هری سالی را ديد

يا چطور سالم بمانيم


1. اگه ميخوايد از روی عصبانيت به چيزی لگد بزنيد حتماً قبلش از ابعاد و وزن و ميزان استحکام اون چيز مطمئن بشيد
2. اگه 2 دقيقه بعد از لگد زدن ديديد که انگشت کوچيکه ی پاتون اندازه ی شصتتون شده و کل ناخنش سياه شده نگيريد بخوابيد با اين اميد که تا صبح خوب ميشه
3. اگه صبح رفتيد دکتر و دکتر با کمال خونسردی و يک انبردست اومد بالا سرتون و گفت که عفونت کرده و بايد ناخنتون رو بکشه خيلی تعجب نکنيد (و ايضا به اين فکر نکنيد که ناخن کشيدن چه شکنجه اي بوده زمان خودش)
4. اگه همون دکتر گفت که به نظرش احتياج به بی حس کردن نيست و شروع کرد به کشيدن اصلا باور نکنيد (و جيغ رو بزنيد بلکه بفهمه)
5. اگه فکر کرديد 3 تا آمپول بی حسی واسه اينه که درد قضيه کم شه خيلی ساده ايد
6. اگه الان منتظريد که بگم قضيه چطور تموم ميشه... باشيد

پ.ن. برای 2 روز سر کار نرفتن به جای گفتن "انگشت کوچيکه ی پام رفته تو ديوار" به رييستون از عبارات سنگين تر، طولانی تر و دردناک تر استفاده کنيد

the delayed winter curse!

اين پا فقط انگشتش تو ديوار نرفته بود و ناخنش نشکسته و از بيخ کشيده نشده بود...

که اونم شد

all of a sudden I miss everyone.

perendinate

MEANING:

verb tr. : To put off until the day after tomorrow.
verb intr.: To stay at a college for an extended time.

ETYMOLOGY:

From Latin perendinare (to defer until the day after tomorrow), from perendie (on the day after tomorrow), from dies (day).

NOTES:

The word procrastinate is from Latin cras (tomorrow). So when you procrastinate, literally speaking, you are putting something off till tomorrow. Mark Twain once said, "Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow." In other words, why procrastinate when you can perendinate?

What if there's no one left to listen

if you decide to speak!

It's almost like old times.

Almost.

Death And All His Friends - Coldplay

A twisted idea of what magic really is!

Once upon a time there was this boy named Jack who was a stupid dreamy brat. Dreamy, because he sold his mother's cow for 5 magical beans to a stranger, and stupid, because he sold his mother's cow for 5 magical beans to a stranger.

You may think after finding out that the beans were really magical and they took him to a whole new land in the clouds despite what his mother kept telling him he would live his dream! He bought the beans for this moment after all, but did he? Noooo! He climbed up the huge beanstalk, saw the big bad giant, stole his gold coins and went back than.

I won't even start on why the hell he climbed that beanstalk again (after all it's not weirder than leaving that place), but after his third "burrowing" the giant couldn't take it anymore and because all the giants are big bad wolfs he fell off the beanstalk taking it down with him and both him and the golden path were destroyed!

What happened to Jack, you say? He probably lived in his old house with his gold coins and gold-laiden hen and gold harp. Living his old but improved life!

But if you ask me about the stranger and what happened to him (and there's one tiny tiny fish in every 11,999 sea of fishes who asks) I probably should tell you he didn't believe in his beans.
But honestly, between you and me, I think he did, and he watched, and he watched, and for the rest of his life he wondered why he didn't have the courage to do it.
And do it right.

Feel lucky...

... if you have someone who knows your patterns!

... and all in one day

1. Sometimes it's too much.
2. I'm thinking of wearing a "GET OVER YOURSELF ALREADY FFS" sign.
3. Funny how when I Add Star today you Share tomorrow.
4. Life is a bitch. Giving you exactly what you did your whole life in a nicely packaged gift with a pretty red ribbon on top, just to show you what a bitch you were (are?), and with that, throwing you headfirst in cold water thank you very much.
5. This "comment on a shared rss post" is against writer's right!
6. Don't ignore.
7. zZz

Routines

- What's the first thing you do in the morning?
- I press the snooze button on my alarm clock and go back to sleep.

is confused

He says Man is never happy with what He has. He says no matter what, Man will never be satisfied. He says it is in Man's nature that he always wants something else.

I say maybe you are giving the wrong thing to the wrong Man!

just because I'm losing doesn't mean I'm lost

testing...

... the "write new blog post by email" thingie! :D

it's a rainy night in Georgia
I feel like it's raining all over the world

- Brook Benton

Best Freaking News Of The Week!

There was a band whose members were Tom Petty, Bob Dylan and George Harrison and I didn't know?!!?!?! HOW COULD I?!?!


ETA: I was so excited when I wrote this post that I had 2 mistakes in one sentence!!

handle with care

Sometimes it gets hard to be the one everyone needs you to be,

to play along.

Sometimes enough is enough

You just have to say it.

Sometimes you get cold...

... when you call just to get warm.

Sometimes you have no other way

Search "photo" in google.
Now search "عکس".

Sometimes it's okay not to like the people you love

Tomorrow things would be different.

sometimes I hate these curly hairs

thinking of cutting them all off.

Sometimes it feels like I'm living someone else's life...

"Oops... Polls are currently not available, please come back later."

How much later exactly? :(

"What is REAL" asked the Rabbit one day. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside of you and a stick-out handle?"
"Real isn’t how you are made" said the Skin Horse. "It’s a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."
"Does it hurt" asked the Rabbit. "Sometimes" said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "But when you are Real you don’t mind being hurt."
"Does it happen all at once" the rabbit asked, "or bit by bit?"
"It doesn’t happen all at once" said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges or who have to be carefully kept.
"Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But those things don’t matter at all, because once you are real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand."

- The Velveteen Rabbit, Margery Williams Bianco

spoonerism \SPOO-nuh-riz-uhm\, noun:

The transposition of usually initial sounds in a pair of words.

Some examples:

We all know what it is to have a half-warmed fish ["half-formed wish"] inside us.

A well-boiled icicle ["well-oiled bicycle"].

It is kisstomary to cuss ["customary to kiss"] the bride.

Is the bean dizzy ["dean busy"]?

When the boys come back from France, we'll have the hags flung out ["flags hung out"]!

Let me sew you to your sheet ["show you to your seat"].

WTF

گرم ياد آوری يا نه

من از يادت نمی کاهم

...نرم نرمک می رسد اينک بهار

LIVING THE LEAP DAY

rethinking

گاهی وقتا که دارم يه چيزی می خونم يهو يه جمله رو با صدای يکی ديگه ميشنوم. اين يکی ديگه خيليا بودن تا حالا. اين جور وقتا بايد بشينم فکر کنم ببينم اون طرف تا حالا اين جمله يا چيزی شبيه اين رو به من گفته يا نه. که به ندرت پيش مياد گفته باشه.

يه جمله هايی با صدای يه آدمايی تو ذهنمون می مونن،
نه به خاطر اينکه می دونيم اون آدم اون حرفو زده،
به خاطر اينکه می دونيم اون آدم اون حرفو می زنه

going down swinging!

Last day of this year and I'm at work at 8:20 in the morning and I can't install NetBeans because my JDK version is "1.5.0.5.5" while the minimum requirement is "1.5.0.6.0"!!!!

sometimes you just have to pray...

It's All About Preparation!

It's like we are going into caves, like we are gonna spend the next 2 weeks in a cell, with a computer thankfully,

the way we pile up movies and TV shows!

I dare you to end before I want you to

If you think just because it's the last few days of this year and everyone's wrapping up their blogs and there are "happy new year"s floating around it does not mean I should too! 'Cause believe me, I'm not done with this crappy year yet, and I use this term loosely!

Not yet.

I am sad

when you are sad

Happy Pi Day!

بهار اينجاست

ولی نيست

Can't get it out of my head

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need

it's a two way highway

Dreams are tricky. They show you what you want, what could have happened.
.
.
.
.
.
And it's not always a good thing.

Local events are getting fewer and fewer

http://upcoming.yahoo.com/

امروز با غزاله رفتيم راهنمايی

همين

don't ever leave me

Things are easy when you are around.
Things are easy when I talk to you.
Things are easy when you plan them.

Things are possible.

love is tough

poll updated!

Last lesson:
1. The most unexpected result up to now.
2. You get the metaphors, don't you?!
3. Note to self: Don't create polls with long answers! Blogger can't handle it X(
4. The new poll is also metaphorically created!!!

half an hour and eternity

1. things hardly ever work out as planned.
2. what is it with this need of satisfying someone else?
3. words last forever. scars tambien.
4. you're so vain you probably think this is about you. and it probably is.
5. guilty? who cares!! you are first in line and that's enough.
6. you can update your antivirus how many times you want, you're still gonna it!
7. counting the few sanity days left.


p.s. damn tears.

Some people are hard to miss.
Some people are hard to hit.

sometimes more than I care to admit

SUCKS
SUCKS
SUCKS
SUCKS
SUCKS
SUCKS
SUCKS

oh and did I mention it SUCKS?

believe it or not

people don't live to make you happy.

Perfect Lover - Kansas

My contribute to Valentine's day :D

The Big Bang Theory

I have friends like that. I am like that sometimes. It's fun where we come from, so deal with it :D

Poll updated!

Last Lesson: Nothing really :D

Note to Self:

When in a meeting, don't doodle fancy letters in your notes.


If you do, don't make them into curse words.


If you still insist to do, don't forget it later,
when your boss is supposed to read your notes.

Unconscionable

بهم می گی موقع رانندگی چراغ ماشين رو روشن کن.
می گی با چراغ روشن که رانندگی کنی به آدما نمی زنی، جلوتو می بينی، راهتو گم نمی کنی، به جدول نمی زنی، از جاده خارج نمی شی. بهم می گی اينطوری مطمئن به مقصد می رسی.
باهات موافقم. احتمالاً نمی دونی، ولی باهات کاملاً موافقم. فقط نکته اينجاست که

الان روزه

اگه می بينی من گاهی به جدول می زنم واسه چراغ خاموشم نيست که اگرم روشن می بود هيچ فرقی نمی کرد.
خودمم که گاهی کج می رم

Life

It's not written in stone

It's written with stone

Done. Done.

.
.
.
and Done!

Poll updated!

Last lesson: Don't mess with higher powers!

P.S. This poll is all Pooya's fault :D

Sucks to be my friend.
Sucks to be around me.
Sucks to know me.
Sucks to love me.
Sucks to be me.

and then some.

Words are cold. Words lie. Don't believe words. Don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about. Don't lie. Don't cry and type happy. Words deceive. Don't trust words you see.

Don't write.
Talk.

There is always hope, even if it's keeping someone else's hope alive, even when it's hoping for something that isn't going to happen.

It's on you, and me.

There is always hope.

One Way Highway

Sometimes we forget to enjoy.



Sometimes we enjoy to forget.

وقتی فکر يخ می زند. آب می شود. بخار می شود. هيچ می شود

روز به روز تنبل تر می شوم در نوشتن. گفتم لابد به خاطر فصل است. به خاطر هواست. گفتم شايد مثل هميشه که حسي که يک روز ديگر نيست رفته باشد. يادم می آيد يک بار حتی گفتم به خاطر کار های زياد تلنبار شده است.

طول کشيد تا بفهمم.
فهميدم.

کلمات سرد شده اند

music

rules my life and owns my soul.

Square One - Tom Petty

P.S. I wish I knew a way to post only the music!

The show must go on

, I guess.

Procras...

Yes. It's forjes time of the year!!!

Peace Of Mind - Boston

Absolute awesomeness.

My City

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JfUHHAA_WM

Filling the glass with sand

and nothing else.

East of the web...

... is colder than ever.

شايد بايد می پرسيديم

غريبه نگفت از کجا آمده.
نگفت آنجا هوايش برفی بوده يا بارانی.
نگفت آفتاب آنجا هم مثل آفتاب اينجا فقط از پشت شيشه گرم است يا ما زيادی سرديم.
نگفت کسی سلامی به ما رسانده يا نه.
حتی در ساکش را هم باز نکرد.


آمد،
چند جمله ی ما را خط خطی کرد،
و رفت

امروز صبح که بيدار شدم
گفتم خودم را غرق می کنم
.
.
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کردم

Carry On My Wayward Son - Kansas

P.S. Just a note, the sound is the important part in all my music youtube posts!

where are you?

not here
brb
! @ my desk
not available
not at my pc
gone

وقتی آدم سورپرايز می شود

:*

Dust in the Wind - Kansas

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkbdP7sq0w8

don't even bother

1. Everyone needs someone to blame.
2. When the music player's shuffle is on that's a warning.
3. Killing is bad. Why can't everyone play with that simple rule.
4. Nothing speaks time like a clock with dead battery.
5. You lied. I knew you lied. But it's ok, 'cause I knew why you lied.
6. "Have faith"
7. I'm afraid if I start, I'll never be able to stop